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Sunday, June 26, 2005


 倒带
 
   歌手:蔡依林 

我受够了等待你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害我是真的很难释怀
终於看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白
最後才把话说开
哭著求我留下来
 终於看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开
 你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
 过去怎黱交代你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
 从我脸上的苍白看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在
 而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块要怎黱拼凑跟重来
 终於看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白
最後才把话说开哭著求我留下来
 终於看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求我别离开

CANTtakeIT;2:11 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Sis was complaining to me through MSN that she was a loser in house keeping. All her flowers died on her and she keep burning up the house. HOLES HERE N THERE!! And she nearly killed Freddy’s second wife and third wife. Haha still remember that she always say “Dun know why I am here! I should be in the office! On top of the executive ladder!” I guess it is pretty hard to swallow that she can meet deadlines and handle enormous stress but she cannot do house keeping.

Come to think of it, guess I would be suffering in the new era of gender survival. From what I figured, since primates walked on the land, the male species have been tasked (by God??) with hunting and bringing the bounty back. While the female stayed at home to maintain the family. That was the way of survival then. BUT TIMES HAVE CHANGED!! The astrology Pisces era is gone!! Welcome the age of Aquarius!! Now, more and more career women are out there snatching the bowl from us! sinking their teeth into the pathetic share that everyone has been aiming at. Or those who shake leg at home waiting for some one to park at their door step with a Lotus Elise. Or simply a Tai Tai life.
Hmm… looking at such circumstances I think there isn’t much choice left for a guy right?? Haha but I guess there is some way out!!
1) Work for 25hrs a day until you die of fatigue
2) Pray that your born as an AH SIA GIA
3) Accept "fate" and stay at home to breast feed the kids…
4) Last but not least… be a gay -.-“
Alas! I still believe that there is hope out there! hope for mankind!! some other solutions other than the five that I racked my brains to come out with.

Disclaimer: All the rubbish that I entered was done in a crappy mood…. so it means that all of it is crap.

CANTtakeIT;3:30 AM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

"CK! your a sagi right? I have never seen such an accurate horoscope for u!!" says BY

Sagittarius (nov 22 - dec 21)
You've got a big mouth and unwittingly hurt an insult people with it. you
can even go to utter strangers and give unsolicited advice and comments.
you also seem to enjoy verbal duels with others whenever you can. and you
sure can make sore losers, even suspecting foul play if things don't go
your way. you have a knack for confrontation and you can't resist being
sarcastic. you also don't think too much of many people, because you have
mild superiority complex. vanity is also a trait in many of you.

Advice
Learn with whom you can be frank otherwise keep your comments to
yourself. discretion is the better part of valor. curb your cockiness,
and you can combine it with your concern for serious issues, aiding in your
search for truth.

-.-"

CANTtakeIT;11:20 AM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

haha yesterday i was out with some of my ME friends.. n they comment that my blog very boring!! "nothing interesting one! JX one more interesting!"
hey!! i also know how to write an interesting blog that can clock traffic history!! just bitch around lor! gossip!! comment on pple's boobs, compare sizes, talk about SEX.. this kinda things always have high traffic flow!! wahaha... humans are just so 38~

I went to the library 2day!! Wo~~ aH~~ libra...ry~~ YES!! I WAS SO BORED THAT I WENT TO THE LIBRARY!! went there to take a look at the newly revamped BUKIT MERAH COMMUNITY LIBRARY and to find a quiet place to start on my DA VINCI's code. Wow was pretty amaxed by what they did to the old library. Now it looks much better, like a contemporary library n its so packed. A huge assortment of books making the adult section look like a maze. The best point of the library was.. i could not find an empty table!! Dun noe why but its so occupied 2day! Found a plush leather seat at one corner and started reading my book. Din noe that Dan Brown's book was so addictive that i was glued to it for 3 solid hours. Felt hungry and left the lib at 6+. But b4 leaving the place i went to the toilet at the 1st floor n guess what i found!!

wah!! so cute right?? miniature toilet bowl!! wahaha for the kids one!! WAH!! din noe that the designers are so detailed and specific?? wahaha scared that the kids might fall into those bigger bowls n get flushed away eh??swoosh~ Hahaha i feel like ALICE IN WONDERLAND like that?? hmm.. or shld i say CK in wonderland??

visited someone's blog 2day n i was momentary blinded by the wordings as i take my eyes off the screen... how can a black backdrop with white wordings be so hurting to my eyes?? i guess the words are mocking at me eh?? what a stoopid ass!! wahaha

CANTtakeIT;8:24 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

I chanced upon a link 2day. A very touching MTV by Kiss that i watched before but i still cliked on the link to view it again.
http://freebsd.nctu.edu.tw/~far/KISS.asf
Sobz sobz.. the MTV neber fail to touch me no matter how many times i watch it. Maybe cause
1. The ger in the MTV is SO CUTE!!
2. The song is damn nice!!
3. The story plot is a classic love story type with a bit of twist in between.
4. The guy in the MTV is so WEI DA and HIS APPRENTICE IS SO KIO SAI!!

admire that guy cause he was so in love with the ger that he was willing to donate his cornea to the ger. Maybe its his fault that she kena the acid as some would say.. but ain't donating his cornea back an equal sacrificial?? He wanted the ger to be happy and not be a burden to the ger so he chose not to let her know about this operation. STOOPID ASS right?? but i like!! waahahaha
haha.. but i like to fantasize about the ending.. will the ger go back to the guy after realizing that the guy has donated his cornea to the ger? or choose to be with that apprentice of him?

Ps: sorry Thor for being late for ur gig.. miss the whole part though.. but ur next gig i confirm will go!! ^_^ btw i think ur guys were great!!

CANTtakeIT;3:45 PM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Wo~ Chase is finally over. Din really like the ending though cause its sort of predictable. Those typical happy ending. Ally did not leave for States and she turned up for Gabriel Mum's wedding . So they ended up 2gether after ten years of waiting. Ok lah.. had a warm fuzzy feeling inside me after watching the show.
Wahaha BY if ur reading this i got the ending summarized for u le.. so its more or less a form of apology le hor!
Haiz.. received a letter today from NUS. Its my transcript... remind me of my bad results. Have to pin it onto my pin-board to reminf myself again. Wahaha.. thats one bad thing when they snail mail you ur transcript every sem...
Spent the whole day at home looking for stuff to do. In the end spent the day downloading Gundam Seed Destiny to watch only to find out that WJ already have 33episodes le. Haha might as well stop DL and stun from him right?
Then dun noe how come i became aunt agony for some one who started asking what to do regarding the BGR that she/he is facing now. Seems like i enlightened him/her cause he/she sound more focussed in his/her decision le.

CANTtakeIT;9:42 PM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Leaving on a Jet Plane
all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go
i'm standing here outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say goodbye
but the dawn is breaking, it's early morn'
the taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn
already i'm so lonesome i could die
so kiss me and smile for me
oh kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
'cause i'm leaving on a jet plane
i'm leaving on a jet plane
i don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe, i hate to go
i'm leaving on a jet plane
there's so many times i've let you down
so many times i've played around
i tell you now, they don't mean a thing
every place i go i think of you
every song i sing i'll sing for you
when i come back, i'll wear your wedding ring
now the time has come to leave you
one more time, oh let me kiss you
and close your eyes and i'll be on my way
dream about the days to come
when i won't have to leave alone
about the times that i won't have to say

CANTtakeIT;7:27 PM

sianz!! its just another day 2day!! starting to feel sick of my life!! there is no EXCITMENT in my life.._(except for the bad things that always happen) i feel like an old ah pek now!!
yesh! my bad luck have not sudside yet. Received a shocking news this afternoon and i feel like shit now... yes! like a pile of shit on the floor... lying there motionless, useless and stinky where everyone will try to avoid! (DUN COME NEAR ME!!)
whateva happen to the HAPPY THINGS in life?? are they also avoiding me cause i am a pile of shit?? I just hate it when my confidence, envision of life starts building up, paving their way up and suddenly something hit me and EVERYTHING come crashing down bringing me to an abyss. i had have enuff!!
WO~ n its thru these times that i notice the evil side of me surfacing from deep under. i start bitching about things, throwing scarcasm at those pple around me.
"Think these will only lead to more misery... its a vicious cycle"
yeah!! since i am a pile of shit?? anyone wanna stir shit here??man i sincerely welcome ur!! liven up my life!!

Magadascar was funny but not worth the money. Think Ben Stiller not that suitable for voicing cartoon characters cause they wun be able to bring out the comical side of Ben Stiller. Stoy was ok only lah even though they tried to potray a lot of diff personality in the movie, i cannot relate any of the personality.

CANTtakeIT;6:55 PM

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

I think my suay-ness have not end yet. Went to MJ on Mon at YC places to test my luck and yes!! i lost again!! Lost 7bucks~ but i think can be considered lucky le lah cause the other "kar" lost more..
Wahaha whats consolating is that stoopid KT lost more than me.. 10 i guess?? But I guess its cause YC's home ground advantage?? N he was damn "xie" lor.. DA SAN YUAN ZI MO!! What the hell!! n then he got one match also TING PAI DA SAN YUAN! what.. siaoz one ley!!
Hmm... thats not the end of my whining!! Then i just receive an email in my NUS email account!!

Examination

Semester 2, 2004/05

I refer to your application for review of examination results. This is to inform you that there is no change to your result for MA3501 Mathematical Methods in Engineering.

Thank you.

What the hell!! waste my 10bucks!! Thought i will have chance to pull up my grades n then they charge so expensive also!! 10bucks ley!! Who knows that they just flip here flip there and say no mistakes! Or worst they never even flip through my script!!

CANTtakeIT;11:18 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

Went drinking at Pang's house on SAt.. as usual i got drunk and KO on the spot.. din noe that i really drank so much cause i wake up the next morning with a terrible hang over.. ~.~" felt as if some one was splitting my head from the centre.
Could not get back to sleep even though i was v tired.. felt hungry but cannot finish the mee hoon that mum bought.
"cannot finish then dun force yourself" says she
haha.. she noes that i dun like to waste food n she say that.. an intention to make me feel guilty n finish the mee hoon??
in the end i took one hour to force myself to finish eating the mee hoon... so pathetic!!

kaoz!! got so many things n pple making me feel so guilty these days.. guilty over my irresponsible actions!! i need to be more selfish!! heck care their feelings!! n i think ignore my feelings oso??

Sow a thought, reap an action
Sow an action, reap a habit
Sow a habit, reap a character
Sow a character, reap a destiny

"7 habits of highly effective people" -Stephen R Covey-

CANTtakeIT;11:57 PM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

haiz.. changed the song to a very very sad song cause have been feeling super down lately..
so many bad/suai things are happening!! -.-"
I FEEL vulnerable!! emotionally inclinded!! but nmind.. the sun will shine again!! i believe in equal xchange!!

CANTtakeIT;12:21 AM

'andI;

Name CCK
BDAE 24 Nov 1982
Email
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'CAN'T;

DISCLAMER : THIS BLOG IS A ColleCTION of THOTS... Owner Does not hold any responsiblity for ANy ANIMALS/BEAST/pigs/or whateva that were hurt in the process...

'TAKE;

"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

'IT;

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