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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Been super biz recently to really blog properly.. so i guess i will be taking a short break from blogging to ease my tight schedule.
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CANTtakeIT;1:16 AM

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Went drinking again 2day... this time with JW. He brought me to this place called Mewton Hotel. Hahaa dun be fooled by its name.. its not really so much of a hotel like the others. Its a pretty run down place. First in order to get there... have to really walk into a deep and dark deserted lane.
At 1st sight, it looks like those haunted mansion that always appear on horror movies... especially at night. Its really really errie with the wooden slits trying to keep the building in place and the stand alone building hidden in concealment behind the undergrowth.
The only entrance is through the steel gate that seem rusty. There's no air con and no lavish furnishing.. only fans dangling from the ceiling, trying real hard to serve its life sentence. The stench of dust and the wood greeted me when i stepped into the building. The place was not even lighted up...with only a small light bulb at the counter n i could barely make out the shape of the "bartender" from the counter. Squinting my eyes, it was a lady. She turned and looked at us as if we have invaded into her territory, disturbing her from the serenity. Then did i hear the familiar sound... the music coming out from a radio!! It was 933....Lucky JW had been a regular to the place and after getting our can of beer, we sat down to chat n rest. It was then did i had a good look at the place. The place was really dilapidated, it look like those kinda building from the 80s. Yah!! preserved and stored in a ulu ulu corner at ORCHARD!! Its like those kinda buildings from the Jap occupation!! The furniture is old from age with those retro cushions from the 80s. Haha i can even picture ANG MOH sailors in their uniform partying and dancing around the place!!
Okok enough of Mewton. After that we headed down to GRapeVine at serangoon. An exact contrast from Mewton i would say... Aircon with red cosy striking cushion. Its a great place!! and i like it cause its a place where beautiful pple hang out.. Cheap yet relaxing place to chill out minus the point that its FAR!! its a kinda place that you can just sit back and waste the rest of your night away doing nothing except talking and stoning... (ain't i getting old??) but the stoopid is.. the place close at 1am!! What a waste.... So home was the final stop left....

CANTtakeIT;1:45 AM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

James Blunt - You're Beautiful
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw you face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

CANTtakeIT;12:04 AM

Monday, August 22, 2005

School work is starting to pile up and i think i am staring to induce uneccessary stress on myself. Forcing myself to chew my lecture notes even though i am not in the mood and not absorbing anything. Drifting away in the lecture, i discovered a miraculous creation that no one have ever published... (thanks to materials engin..)
I discovered one thing on earth that will break without any physical stress exerted to it. Some that is so frail yet strong at times. Something that will crumple at the slightest provacation yet be able to weather tonnes of other stress. Something called the HEART... YES!! its such a beautiful creation that people often like to marvel and examine it. Trying to understand their own heart... trying to find thousand and one ways to mend back the holes and sew back the wounds that are deeply engraved in it.
Hmm... think till now there is no logical explaination to it eh??? Maybe there still wun be in the near future?? IF anyone ever find any replacement for it.. can the kind soul please tell me?? So i can changed mine??

CANTtakeIT;11:36 PM

Was stuck at home on a wonderful Sunday. Cooling morning brought by the blissful rain early in the day to make me have a wonderful sleep. Just the perfect day to hug my bolster and cuddle under the blanket.
*Ok!! back to reality... was actually at home cause no one jio-ed me out and there was no where that i could possibly go....so i stoned at home to be a couch potato*
Spend the day watching lame kids programs and dumb retro shows like 最佳拍档 (wonder how come i used to like this kinda shows..) but luckily i catched some constructive program. National Day Rally...
The National Day Rally speech is a speech given by the prime minister to rally fellow Singaporean citizens. To gather support, meet out the direction that Singapore will be heading in the next few decades and the new policies that the government will be implementing to improve the economy.
It was the first time that i ever listen to the National Rally Speech cause i thought it was suppose to be boring, But heck.. what can be more boring than staying at home reading lect notes?? And it turn out to be quite a captivating speech by Mr Lee Hsien Long.
But i found something funny about what he said... he mentioned about extending the age of retirement and he qouted an example of a front desk recep at a SPA centre. That companies would seek only age below 35 and turn away job seekers that are 40years old as their recep. What such companies need is only a front desk recep and as such, an experienced worker is more qualified for the job rather than stating age as their judging criteria..Companies should change their mentality!!
What i think Mr Lee missed out about this point is.. he qouted a bad example!! LOOK!! we are examing a SPA saloon here!! SPA equates to BEAUTY = RELAXATION = PERFECTION = YOUTH!! Not much people would fancy going to a SPA centre where they are greeted by a erm... AH MA.. Its an unspoken rule that recep are supposed to be young beauty ladies who wear mini skirt to work everyday n soak their face in make-up powder before they report to work. You shldn't blame the poor company for practising such marketing strategies to compete.
Then he touched on the part about building up the Marina region with this and that.. WAH!! I was fascinated and in fact looking forward cause this would mean that i would have more place to hang out... but WAIT!! MORE CONSTRUCTION = MORE BLANGAHS!!! Arghhh.. i cannot picture this anymore!! Have you ever taken a walk down your popular tourist spot that your so proud of during National Day?? (<---Sentosa) The pearly white sand, blue lagoons are all contaminated by those blangahs!! Wearing just a nearly translucent cotton CROCODILE UNDERWEAR running along Palawan Beach stepping on the hot babes lying on the sun in their bikini... Climbing trees and playing tug while we were playing beach volleyball. OMG!! i can imagine the vast of marina being dotted with BLangahs having their picnic in future.....HELP!!! But still Mr Lee did motivate me with his speech.. the togetherness of Singaporeans as a whole n the identity that we carry with us. GOOD SPEECH MR LEE!!

CANTtakeIT;12:28 AM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Noticed that i have been blogging very frequently these few days. Guess I am hooked to it and also probably cause i got nothing better to do that blog at night.
Met up with Cl and Phoe just now for dinner. It had been a very very long time since i met up with my these JC class mates. Conferred as the attitudes in our class, I was feeling skeptical in joining them for dinner. Furthermore, there was not much common topic since Cl was now working and Phoe studying in SIM. N THE WORST THING WAS THEY ARE MEETING AT PARKWAY!! CAUSE ITS NEARER TO THEIR HOUSE.... but heck lah.. its a night when the bitches unite!
I was super late so i had to take a cab down. 8bucks!! n that stoopid uncle tried to cheat me by adding the 1buck peak hour. Luckily i was alert enough to know that the peak hour is over. Anyway, we had dinner at SAKAE and it was a luky night for me cause that waitress forgot to key in my Teriyaki Don! Since CL was signing with her LAdies CArd and seeing that my item was only the Agadaeshi Tofu, she treated me!! ;p
After that we went to Beach Hut for beer. My 1st time there but found that the place is actually quite a good chill out place. Comfty place with the good ambience except for the noisy band which i thot was good at 1st. But suprising, the crowd kept pouring in even though i thot that the music was lousy. We did a lot of catching up and bitching. Really bring back old memories... yah... really really OLD memories. All of us felt that we have grown old... After that we all grew tired so we walked CL home while i lombang Phoe on the cab to Tanjong Katong Mall before i head home.
On the way home, I though about alot of things... finally realize the similarity of us CJCians that I dun really see in NUS. Hate to admit to it but we are really not those scholars type. We always pontan, neber mug, fail exams, skip school n dun study well unlike those people. But we have our character! A character that I cannot find in those NUS chao muggers! A unqiue character that makes us stand out from others and let us feel good about ourself!
Oh btw... the drinks were also on CL, this means my whole night expenditure was only on the 20bucks cab fare... makes me feel like a "small white"... haiz... what to do.. my spending power can no longer match hers cause she is working now...

P.S: I am going to wake up from the STUPOR!!

CANTtakeIT;2:15 AM

Thursday, August 18, 2005

I believe everyone have heard about the story about of boarding buses at the bus stop? Ok, for the benefits of those that have no idea what I am blahhing about or those that are still cracking their heads trying to recall the stody, I will type it all out.
There's this guy who was waiting at a bus stop and not long after standing there, his bus came. It was a single deck bus fully packed with people.
"Aiyoh.. so squeezy and no place to sit some more. I think i will wait for the next bus." He thought to himself.
After waiting for a while, another bus came. This time, it was an empty and run down bus.
"Wah! This bus so lok kok! n there is no air con some more. I think i will wait for the next bus." He told himself.
So he continued waiting and waiting. This time round he waited for a longer time than usual and finally his bus came. It was a single decked air-con bus with few passengers. The bus stopped in front of him waiting for him to board.
"Hmmm... I think i should wait for a double decker bus so that i can enjoy the scenery during the ride." So the bus driver drove away closing the door behind on him.
The guy continued waiting for his bus. After waiting for a very very long time, he was very pissed off and he looked at the watch to see how long he was waited for his bus. To his amazement, it was 0030!! There was no more bus!! The bus that had left was his last bus!! Laughing at his only foolishness, he grabbed his bag and walked home.
I was waiting at the bus stop at Tiong Bahru. There are 2 buses there that goes to my place, 195 n 123. 195 does not alight at my place but rather one stop ahead and i have to take a 5mins walk back home from the bus stop and 123 goes straight to my place. But the frequency of 195 is much much faster than 123. I had once waited for 123 for half an hour while witnessing 3 195 drive past me.
*Okok!! back to my story!!*
I was waiting at the bus stop when 195 came. It was near the rush hour and alot of people are trying to squeeze onto the bus. Keeping the BUS STORY in mind, i joined the queue with those KSKS people while peering over in hope that 123 will come. Nope! So i boarded the bus and alighted at the bus stop one stop before my place. As i was half way through the walk, I noticed a bus whop past me... it was 123..... -.-"

Morale of the story:
1) Not all stories are good stories.......
2) Do not trust all those stories that you hear......
3) Take buses that go straight to your house....
4)I am suai...

CANTtakeIT;10:10 PM

Back to the normal sch day life has never been fun to begin with. Minus the eye candies and the company of friends, there was practically nothing to be joyful about in sch. But 2day's lesson was an interesting one. Something outside the normal engineering field, a HR module.
Miss Chan (wierd cause she is a 50+ auntie who still call herself Miss though she is married.) highted something about learning.
Learning never stops. Quoting this phrase from Magaret Thatcher, "... It is when talented people.. find themselves having to reply on their brains rather than their muscles, that societies progress.." So what is stoping people from learning to acquire new knowledge? Its the uncertainty that people are scared of. The challenges that will be faced when you step out of your normal comfort zone to go and embrace something new. The fears of this and that and for a paradigm shift.
Ok ok.. enough about the wonderful Miss Chan but the other thing that interest me alot was the personality test that she handed out to us to do. It was supposed to something for us to get to know ourself better. I have never trusted these kinda personality tests!! Cause i think they are all bull shit.
Firstly, WHO is UP THERE to tell u who you are and classify the type of person that you belong to?? N to trust the acurancy of it?
Secondly, the questions are asked such that they are trying to challenge the morals in you and being a gracious Singaporean brought up with "HAO GONG MING" and the top 10 correct answers at the back of my head. Its a tough challenge between my rationality and emotion. Yah just take a look at these questions:
On a rating of five rank these 2 choices:
When making decisions:
A: I take my time
B: I make them quickly
Comon! By taking my time, it clearly reflects that your a dumb ass and by doing them quickly it only tell people that your a rash ah beng. How effective can these kinda questions guage what type of person you are right? And not considering the possiilty that some fickle minded people( like me) do things differently in different circumstances.
In the end, I still finished the test.... cause my CA depended on it...... depended on how well i suck up to Miss Chan... -.-"

CANTtakeIT;12:14 AM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Just came back from jogging and feeling fresh after the hot shower. Mum was always repulsive to jogging at night, especially during the 7th month. But heck! She's asleep and I am safely back home. Could barely finish one round of Purmei. Was feeling debilitated while jogging... my legs felt heavy as if they were shackled to the ground n i took a longer time than the usual 25mins.
Jogging at night has recently been my favourite hobby whenever I am feeling vexed over something. And it has proven to be a pretty good hobby by keeping fit and keeping things out. Haha especially the joy when trying to overtake Wong and Rg.

I happened to see this phrase which i copied some time ago. It goes something like this.
"Anytime we are too vulnerable we feel the need to protect ourselves from further wounds. So we resort to sarcasm, cutting humor, critism- anything that will keep from exposing the tenderness inside."
Copied it cause i find it quite meaningful. The descriptions are quite true to natural human behavior (at least for me). A sense of self protection against harm through verbal weapons. Haiz... should not be taking so many ethics and inter-personal modules this sem as they are getting me quite emotional. And can feel that my left eye is going to give me problem again.. lets just pray that my cornea ulcer is not bad again......

CANTtakeIT;1:08 AM

Sunday, August 14, 2005

The weekend passed by so fast. It was a hetic weekend where everything was cramped together and i felt that i cannot breathe. Luckily everything is over.
Fri
Cant believe that i really stayed back in sch to queue up for my design project. The prof is a stoopid ass, a saddist who judge interest, passion and enthusim by the amount of sleep that you sacrifce. Heng XL drove and in the middle of the night we managed to slip out of school to go for a KTV session. Wahaha it was a pretty good bonding session n KW is damn good!

Sat
So shag out after the ME3 stayover party that i slept n slept n slept until i nearly missed the heritage walk that i promised LF to go. I had no clue what the walk was all about, where, and who was going even. I found out what it was after meeting up with them... omg!! run around town area to find check points and answer historical questions!!

hey!! i realise during this walk that there are so many places that i have neber been b4 in Singapore!!

LF n Viz with the "jing ca chuan duan ku!!"

CHIJMES is so enchanting at sunset!

Doesn't this makes you feel like your in HK?? Those vert vert old buildings.. hmm rare to c it these in SG right??

the chio british!!

Shuai right??

i even got a chance to go into the supreme court!! once in a lifetime!!

totally shag out after the whole event....

and the wonderful fireworks!!

The famous MER-cheekin!!

lesson learnt: sometimes something boring can also be fun!! and fun is the best "chicken soup for the soul"...

CANTtakeIT;10:01 PM

Friday, August 12, 2005

School has started for less than a week and i am already feeling lethargic. Dragging myself to school everyday like a drone. Tousled and weary with a lot of dead lines to meet. School was the same as usual, nothing exciting that happened, nothing that will happen and nothing is going to happen...

"How come your looking so tired?" <--- its a comment that always followed me where ever i went.
I seriously had no idea!!! I guess its because I was borned with this face or there simply was nothing for me to be happy about that is written on my face.

Been doing a lot of reading these few days. Books, magazines, car specs, household appliances read-ups, fine dining recommendations.... anything that i can get my hands on except textbooks. Guess i am still on the run from reality. But the most idiotic thing i did was to read a blog. A blog @ that i should have deleted long ago. It had been a painful past and an arduous battle to get over it but rationality was weak 2day.... Seems like she have been leading quite a happy life all the while, happily with her loved one. Good for her.... and may God please watch over her so that she remain happy always.

Recently I have been trying to curb a thought by excerising some positive thinking on it and offering some reasoning on it. But i just cant get it out of my head so i thought of sharing it. I was pondering over the truthfulness of a human character. How amazing one could pour their woes in front of you. Showing how frail he is and the despair situation that he is in. Tactless and helpless, seeking for your understanding and help. But enslaving you back into the aladdin's lamp once help has been seeked. Only waiting to be summoned out when the need arrives. Din they noe that trust and appreciation is the basis of friendship rather than pitiness and digging on the soft spot of the human character? I might not be asking for anything back in return but just hope that i can be trusted and treated with due respect of a friend rather than a TOOL.... Aladdin was only given 3 wishes. Though friends are worth more, it is only a matter of time before the "magic" dies off and dun return.....

CANTtakeIT;2:39 AM

Monday, August 08, 2005

!0am... My stoopid phone was ringing. Damn it! Having regrets about my promise to Don. Cursing and swearing at no one in particular. It was a tough battle between my determination and my 2m by 1m soft bed. To make things worst, God was there to help "it". The heavy rain accompanied with the cold weather was probably the best deterrent against my wild idea. SCHOOL HAVE NOT START YET!! GO BACK TO BED N SLEEP UNTIL YOUR ASS IS WARM...
Argghhh... i mustered all my will that is left to fight this coercion. Took a quick shower, changed, packed and chiong out of my home.
Life as an NTU student today... i thot to myself ... what crap!! Can't believe i am really doing this man!! On such a "nice" weather some more!!
Finally reached NTU after taking bus, train and more buses. Followed the stoopid crowd and alighted in a foreign place just to find that i ended up in can A. After some directions, i found a place in LEE WEE NAM LIB n Don came later. He showed me around and b;ah blah blah <--- i am getting bored of this shit!! HAHA I think i shall just go to the main point!!
Hmmm... i really liked NTU, at least more than NUS. Guess its more of an unexplanable feeling eh? Having deep regrets that i did not choose NTU instead. But oh well.. have already been in the NATION UNION OF SHIT for 2yrs le... y not another 2yrs right??

omg... after reading thru what i just blogged.. i think it sux, what have i blogged!!! I think its due to my bad mood.. hmm... shld try and salvage it.

CANTtakeIT;2:01 AM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Hiz avid readers!! Haven't been blogging much recently and guess I am reaching the plateau of my life... come to think of it, i can't really picture of i have been spending time these few days. Stopped my work cause i dun feel like working that shitty job anymore. Yah the pay was good but the job sucks, the in-charge sucks and worst of all, the pple around are so fake!!
Spend the past few days watching BECK....
"It's good, superb!! Go back watch and you will like it!" says Thor

I watched the 1st episode... there is nothing special about BECK. There was no special powers, no gods, no deities, no ghosts, no heavenly gers with big booties and no FANTASY. But i just watched on and on... one episode after the other w/o stopping.
The anime is about a boy, a middle school boy Yukio. He was a typical loser in every aspect, small, ordinary, had few friends and had no life. But he meet this guy who changed his life, this guy who exposed him to rock music. Yukio found out later that his crash also like rock music and at 1st he only wanted to have more topics to talk about so he learnt the guitar and listened to different genre. But slowly, he began to like jamming... he practised day n night, like a possesed child. But no matter how hard he try, he was just not good enough. No one believe in him.... not even himself. The choices that he had to made in his life... to give up music and continue to concentrate on his studies. And how he found hope from a ger... a ger who discoverd his talent and was v supportive. The anime not only talks about Yukio's fighting spirit, his high school life but also reveals the harsh reality of the music world.

"Its nice... go watch..."

I guess maybe thats what got me hooked up to the anime. Some one so ordinary, some one that is like you and me can also shine out from the crowd. Believe in your talent, believe in the effort, the sweat and tears that you have put in. I was moved by the spirit that Yukio had, something that was lacking in me......

"Wah.. u call this cock song nice ar?? I find this song fucked up lor!! haha" says Ed
"Eh? Can't you feel the emotion coming out from the song??"
"Emotions my foot lar. Haha I feel like sleeping when I hear this song." says Ed
"lolz. I guess opinions differ from people to people." says Ed

*In the end he sent me Taufik Batisah's "I dream".......* -.-"
Hope your will like this song....
p.s turn on the music

CANTtakeIT;3:49 PM