Sunday, January 29, 2006
HAPPY CNY TO ALL THOSE READING!!
CNy never had any impact to me all these years. In fact, it never made me happy. Was packing and clearing up my cabinet n room when i found the "sheeps". It was the only thing that i have left with me since then. N now then i realize why i still treasure n keep it even though i shld have thrown them away long long time ago...
How often have anyone of your felt "wanted" n treasured by some one?? Now I finally realize how fortunate it is to have some one thinking about you. When they are happily shopping looking for a gift for you, when they are sad n needs a ear or when they are sitting in the boring LT trying to sneak sms to you. The "sheeps" did make me feel "wanted" during then but now it reminisce me of betray, lies and hypocrisy. But still, I still cannot bring myself to throw out this trash. Haiz... think i will be seeing them again next year spring cleaning.
This year CNY got worst. Had a bad quarrel with dad over some very trivial things that din make sense to me. Think i made him very upset but i found no fault in myself in arguing. He was being unreasonable n i really mean it.
TO @ on to my misery, i injured myself. My heels are hurting like hell!! I have no idea how they end up swollen cause i din fall down n neither did i knock into ANYTHING!! i just noe that i have much difficulty limping around the house. Initially it was only the right heel so i keep leaning all my weight on my left. NOw, both are swollen....
Think this year will be a really really bad year for me. Just hope that everything turns well... plz.. i cannot take FALLS anymore le....
CANTtakeIT;5:41 PM
Monday, January 16, 2006
Went down yesterday to take a look at Funkamania. Din really planned to go there but YF just called me and say that he is there le. I guess i was just using him as an excuse then?? Since when have i been so afraid to face "....." Dun noe y n have no idea what i am afraid of but i was just very scared. So i went n me up with YF. Wearing my thick nerdy specs, i din even comb my hair. Maybe i was trying to hide behind my fringe to avoid eye contact. But i guess "...." rarely notice me, she was so biz with her stuff n i dun even dare to approach the tent to talk to HAN even though he will be dancing later. Hmmm nmind.. things will get better... I hope...
I AM FALLING SICK!!
ITs been a long time since i last fall sick (minus illness like cough) and i have really forgotten how terrible it feels. I caught a Flu... the most talked about thing for the past year... I was practically shivering the whole journey home after i finished work. Damn!! A piece of advise to those reading... never ever drink beer when u think ur going to fall sick. Cause i did...felt weird and feverish in the noon but i still went to work n drank 2 glass of beer in one shot cause the stoopid customer kept asking us to drink.
Feeling cold again...
CANTtakeIT;1:33 AM
Went down yesterday to take a look at Funkamania. Din really planned to go there but YF just called me and say that he is there le. I guess i was just using him as an excuse then?? Since when have i been so afraid to face "....." Dun noe y n have no idea what i am afraid of but i was just very scared. So i went n me up with YF. Wearing my thick nerdy specs, i din even comb my hair. Maybe i was trying to hide behind my fringe to avoid eye contact. But i guess "...." rarely notice me, she was so biz with her stuff n i dun even dare to approach the tent to talk to HAN even though he will be dancing later. Hmmm nmind.. things will get better... I hope...
I AM FALLING SICK!!
ITs been a long time since i last fall sick (minus illness like cough) and i have really forgotten how terrible it feels. I caught a Flu... the most talked about thing for the past year... I was practically shivering the whole journey home after i finished work. Damn!! A piece of advise to those reading... never ever drink beer when u think ur going to fall sick. Cause i did...felt weird and feverish in the noon but i still went to work n drank 2 glass of beer in one shot cause the stoopid customer kept asking us to drink.
Feeling cold again...
CANTtakeIT;1:33 AM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Just realize that I am such a failure...
Sis called back from Japan and I picked up the phone. It was thru her that i rem that 2day is Mum's bdae. Haiz... sis living so far away from us could still rem that 2day is Mum's bdae and she took the effort to call back to wish her and yet the son staying everyday with her under the same roof cannot rem such a trivial thing.
To make up for it, i brought her an apple strudel. Damn it... The durian one that mum like was snatched up by this guy who i think left only 10mins b4 me.
Troubled by alot of things recently. Both trivial things as well as important things. Little things always have the effect of snowballing into some big when u start ignoring them n the worst thing is they keep haunting u!! Haha
Hmm... interest or "interest"? Whichever is the more essential thing in life?
To follow your dreams n the things you like and lead a fullfilling life that can satisfy your inner self and emotions??
OR
To satisfy the palpable monetary side that governs all your interest? To lead a leg-shaking life w/o worries for the sky rocking COE, monthly installments, house loan? I have to make choices. Something that might turn up bad...... like say, stranded in isolation in Middle East.
Some how or rather i admit that i am a shallow and materialistic bastard so i chose the latter one... $$ is the root of all evil, haha such a lousy yet specific way of putting it.
OFFSHORE!! here I come!!
CANTtakeIT;3:26 AM
Monday, January 09, 2006
Just went for a wedding dinner. Ah boy's wedding dinner. Haha actually its the 1st friends wedding dinner that i have gone to. So fast and i am stepping into adult hood to embrace the quarter life crisis. The wedding was fun with all the 120mm around. Had a pretty fun time drinking n taking pics... too bad i din bring my cam along so have to wait for don to send me.. Haha i still cannot drink... a few glass of beer n a glass of Martell n i am flushing red. Think i was worst than a lobster cause they kept suaning me....
Haha its the new year le... sch gonna start 2molo le n i am still drawing up my time table... haha been too slack during the holidays le.. haha time to pull up my socks le!!
Anyway.. PAH has been taking its toll on me... stoopid shit!! so many things to do.. how come ZH neber warn me about it b4 i took up the post. HAving regrets now.. my APD keep MIA some more!! Then my new com all new birds.. how to tahan??!!
Haiz... time to sleep le... All the best for those that are also starting sch 2molo!! have a fun day!!
CANTtakeIT;12:53 AM