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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Sis is back from japan... Dun noe if i shld be happy about this or not.
Supposedly she will be back only @ around June. She could not come back for CNY but this time she had to come back to tend to some things. Yah.. if your are guessing, its a "white" thing.

ME3102 is killing me!! Have been complaining to Teck that i feel so cheated.
Picture this: They throw me a half-fucked design and asked to build it during the last few weeks of fab.
I had to think of how i am going to come out with the arm while looking tt job sheet. Half an hour later i was working on it.
One whole week of OT n shit to finally fab the arm out. Though its not a perfect 10 out of 10 design. NO aethestic value nor perfect dimensional accuracy, it still fits its purpose. Comon! I was only given half an hour to think on the spot man!!
Contratry to that, am damn pissed. HE has been working on the design since last sem, was the OWNER of the design, noe the limitation, uses and stuff. N he is still working on it now..... n he still dare to seek help from me. Stoopid shit... always give stoopid excuses that he has something on or cannot come for fab this n that but is actually at his gal's place. I can't imagine myself helping him with his part while he is hugging his ger. (<---idea taken from a friend)

CANTtakeIT;11:31 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Damn.... I think my french sucks. Esp after each tutorial class or lecture. I feel that i suck even more. Ok! I guess its time i start studying my french. Haha so i shall start here!!

Je suis très très occupé ces journees. Il y a projet beaucoup. Un après un, et se est never ending.
Je suis très fatiguees!! Je veux détente et je veux faire zero!!
Oh oui! Je regarde quelqu'un très familière en classe francaise
Elle vient opposer ma classe
Elle regarde très comme beaucoup elle!!
Elle regarde à moi avec yeux comme si elle connaît moi.
Je suis choc et je sais je ne peux pas prendre moi yeux outre d'elle.
Est-ce que je prends la passé ou est-ce que la passé aprends moi?

MARDE!!... i pense moi french really sucks..

CANTtakeIT;11:42 PM

Monday, March 20, 2006

I think i am saddist.
I realize that i am not only a procrastinator. I enjoy the intense pressure and adrenalin rush of trying to get things done the day before dline. Even though i force myself to stay at home to do all the assignment, i still end up doing it last min. I think i get the kick out of forcing myself to the limit and letting anxiety and fear take over my brains. Dun this amount to some sort of self torturing?
Haha on the other hand, some one said something very meaningful. Seems like your trying to prove to that some one UP there. Seems like HE always have means and ways to make things very unexpected and you just keep trying ur best to resist.
Resistance is not futile, @ least it got me so far n triumphant is only meaningful when there is a fight.

Ok... enough of the shit... Its 0430 and i still dun have the mood to sleep. I am SO energetic now!! I guess its the "hang-over" from rushing the PPT for ME4105. Think i am really gonna miss my lect 2molo....

CANTtakeIT;4:18 AM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

.....站在寂寞的舞台上
灯光下拖着自己的影子
音乐重复我们共同的忧伤
不是每一次的演唱
就可以淡忘明天没有你
in my heart we'll never be apart....

*Stoopid 65!! Make me wait so long...*
*nose itchy... scratch scratch...*
suddenly my nose became like a running tap with blood flowing out of it non stop.
Shit man!! Not now....
i desperately searched my whole bag for tissue... shit!!
By now the blood is slowly flowing onto my lips... I looked at the print-outs on my hand n then the blood stains on my nose digging finger. Haiz... suan le

小弟，流鼻血 ar？
i took off my ear phones..
then she handed me a packet of wet tissue...
omg!! my savouir!! I stuck the whole wet tissue up my nose..
then my angel started tapping on my head n say this will stop the bleed faster..
suddenly i felt the love coming from a stranger...
a 40+ auntie who is so kind to a stranger in need...
It made me realise that there are indeed helpful pple out there... I was touched by an angel!!
She really brighten up the gloomy week that i was having with all the dlines n projects n cock-ups
Thanks ANGEL!

Come to think of it... i have been having nose bleeds v frequently these days
intially i thot that blood shld be coming out from my mouth instead cause the cronic cough have been pestering me for 4months le...
din noe y blood is coming out from the nose instead.. strange isn't it? -.-"

CANTtakeIT;12:14 AM

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'TAKE;

"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

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