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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

To my long forgotten blog...

Cant really sleep @ the moment even though it is 3am in the morning.
The reason being that i will be embarking on my Austrialia trip in another 14hours time. Guess this trip will be the most daring trip I have ever gone so far since i will be travelling along. Ok, for the 1st 4days, @ least there is Chun n XH in Melbourne who i can turn to when i arrive there. But the remaining 6 days of my trip will be on my own. Hmmm... some how or rather, this seems to be like a testimonial trip to see how much i have learned and grow during my 4years in NUS.

The decision to travel didn't come by easy. There was a lot of things holding me back while at the same time, arriving at the decision made me realise a lot of things... people treat things so differently that pissed me off n make me wonder if i have been blind in the past. But nevertheless think shld not be bothered by what others do since that will only make life more miserable...

Putting the unhappy things apart, mum as usual was always objective when it comes to me making such radical things... dad's silent support accompanied with sis who was always being me in whateva i do... to some extent, i kinda feel that i have a great sis! A wonder mentor who always teach me how to grow up. Letting me waddle in the pool of reality, grasping for shore while silently pushing me from behind.

Hmmm... Teck might be right. Travelling alone willl be good. It gives you a lot of time to yourself... makes you see the world from a different angle. Maybe i will come back like him, more focussed and determined. Anyway, felt great knowing that I do still have friends who care about me (whose name i shall not mention) n support my act of willfulness. Thanks peeps!

Just some thot to YM: I guess I feel that i am no longer the "tian ta xia lai dou hui dang bei gan de ren" person anymore... too much uncertainties taking over. But rest assure... i will find back that person who u once know n make u honour ur can of beer to me.
To Her: Take good care of yourself while i am gone and plz dun 4get what u once said to me....

Voyez-vous quand je suis retour!

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'TAKE;

"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

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-MY HISTORY-

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